Dogs hate the 4th of July. All the fireworks and stuff. Audrey was no exception. Of course, the last couple years of her life she was so stone deaf that she didn’t need to be tranquilized. After all, she couldn’t hear the fireworks anymore.
All the same, a few days ago I thought “I better find Audrey’s pills so she won’t freak out.”
And then I remembered – Audrey’s in Heaven. For one brief moment I thought of my dog as still alive here on earth.
Every time I have french fries or get a package of crackers with a salad I start to set them aside for her. And then I remember she’s not here anymore.
I miss my dog SO MUCH!
The day she was put to sleep I was listening to Barry Manilow’s newest album, The Greatest Songs Of The 80s. “Never Gonna Give You Up” had just finished as I pulled into my work parking lot. The next song would’ve been “Have I Told You Lately That I Love You?” – even though I wasn’t overly familiar with the song before this album as I didn’t listen to 80s music in the 80s – I knew enough of it from commercials that I used to pick Audrey up, look her in the eyes, and ask her that. Then I’d kiss her little furry head.
Yesterday was the first time I could listen to that album without wanting to cry. So I guess I’m getting better. But – still – I miss my little girl. My sweet dog-doll.
Happy forth, I guess. Except for the doggies out there.
July 5, 2009 at 8:32 am |
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